Saturday, May 14, 2011

Beautiful words.

Graduated.

That's crazy to think about.

So, now what?

I'm ready to grow intellectually. I feel as if I could sprout from this strong foundation I have acquired into something beautiful.

I want to create beautiful work. Beautiful thoughts. Beautiful words.

Let's do this.

Saturday, February 5, 2011

For the love of blogging.

I just downloaded BlogPress on my iPhone. Consequently, I should be blogging more often. We'll see!


- Roxie

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Discovering the heart in Jacksonville.

Reverb 10 - December 7: Community Post.

Smiling ear-to-ear, a 3-year-old boy stumbles to catch a pass thrown by a volunteer.

Standing there, at the Children's Home Society of Florida, I began to wonder if this was the first time he had ever played catch. The amount of happiness in his eyes overwhelmed me. I had never seen a child so happy about something so simple as having someone to play catch with. Tears welled up in my eyes and I moved on, continuing my work.

This began to be an everyday experience for me at the Children's Home Society. The many small communities in Jacksonville, Fla. that I witnessed giving are those that I will never forget. Walking into work each week, I never knew what I could expect to see that day, what would be donated or who would give their time for the children. Every day, I would be overwhelmed by the sponsorship of companies or donations filling the lobby. This is a community that I discovered within this past year, opening my eyes to the heart in Jacksonville. This is a community that I want to be a part of.


Craft.

December 6 – Make. What was the last thing you made? What materials did you use? Is there something you want to make, but you need to clear some time for it? (Author: Gretchen Rubin)

I can't even remember the last thing I made. I never really was a crafty person. I would rather craft words in to sentences and sentences into paragraphs if I had the choice.

There is one thing I long craft into perfection: my portfolio. Throughout this semester, I have gathered many pieces for it. It makes me ecstatic to even think about putting it all together in completeness. I need to clear time for this. I need to make plans. Recently, I have been noticing that I don't make time for things that mean a lot to me. Perhaps, this is what college is about; about learning to manage time. There are many days where I wish I could just sit in the living room and build my portfolio, or blog, or even just lie there in thought. Instead, I sit at a cold desk writing papers and press releases. It's about time to take a step towards making myself happy.
Change will come. Time will be made.

Monday, December 6, 2010

Free.

Reverb 10 - December 5: Let Go. What (or whom) did you let go of this year? Why?

To make room in my life for growth, I had to let go.

I began to notice throughout this past year that someone was holding me back from being who I wanted to be. I understood that I was not going to be able to reach ultimate success, in my eyes, with this person in my life.

I was not a babysitter. I was not a mother. I was not a guardian. I was me, watching out for me.

Now, I realize how much I was being held back. Now, I'm free.

Sunday, December 5, 2010

Wonder.

Reverb 10 - December 4: Wonder. How did you cultivate a sense of wonder in your life this year?

I wonder.

I wonder what makes a leaf turn golden.
I wonder what it feels as it falls to the ground.
I wonder who else will gaze upon the same leaf.
I wonder what the leaf hears at it lies still.
I wonder what the leaf will see, in its perspective.

I wonder what makes the tears run down her face.
I wonder what makes her cough in the morning.
I wonder if the drugs help her cope with something.
I wonder who does she look up to.
I wonder if the bruises will ever disappear.

I wonder how can I get them to listen.
I wonder how many will take action.
I wonder who will value my opinion.
I wonder what it takes to be the best.
I wonder when I will be the one who can make a change.

I wonder what my future holds.

I wonder.

Saturday, December 4, 2010

The moment of limit-free.


Reverb 10 - December 3: Moment. Pick one moment during which you felt most alive this year. Describe it in vivid detail (texture, smells, voices, noises, colors).

The wind was blowing my hair uncontrollably. I looked over the railing and watched the bright blue water crash against the dark stone; boats anchored in the near grotto rocked. I could hear the clicking of cameras and sounds of voices surrounding me. They would fade in and out, coming closer and farther. I didn't care about bothering anyone and I didn't want anyone to bother me.

With every gust of wind, it felt like life was given to me. It was one of the most amazing feelings I have every felt. There are not words to describe this feeling. But at that moment, I knew I was something so small in the world, but had the capability to be something bigger.

Standing amongst the seas of Italy, on the island of Capri, I found that even though your life is spinning in circles at home, it is important to know there is more out there. There is more out there to explore, to learn and to experience. I learned not to limit myself. I was alive.


(This is a photograph I took during the time of the event, Garden of Augustus, Capri, Italy)